Lesson 39: Breaking the rules

Dear Readers,

I have a confession to make. I have been overcome by love and I am scared as hell by it.

I have become a walking cliché.

Smiling stupidly when he texts.
Suddenly stopping what I am doing when I think of him.
Listening to soppy love songs (because they make sense).
There are a lot of butterflies in my stomach right now.
My heart literally feels like it is going to burst.

Obviously before embarking on a new relationship I did a lot of “research”. Confronted by lots of websites which says “You should wait….” “You should let him chase you..” “Don’t forget it’s just a bunch of chemicals” “Don’t kiss on the first date” “Don’t do this…don’t do that. Feel this. Feel that.”

I am not going to lie – I have “known” this guy just over a week. It has been an intense time!

“Don’t confuse love for lust after a week”.

So many rules out there trying to dictate how I am supposed to love and feel. How I am supposed to be in control of my feelings.

Yes…well dear readers…I have decided to say “fuck you” to the rules and I am going to fully enjoy this happiness.

Could I be setting myself up for the biggest heartbreak of my life? – Most possibly.
Am I going to regret this blog post after I post it? – Most definitely.
The good thing is…I know that whatever happens – I can survive it 🙂

I have spent years denying myself of pleasures. Even now I don’t eat breakfast in the morning – as I am trying to keep my weight down. I am going to enjoy this moment of absolute bliss.

Because you never know what tomorrow could bring.

This reminds me of a song my dad used to sing to me all the time when I was a kid.

“Tell Laura I love her” tells the story of a man (named Tommy) who takes part in a racing competition so that he can win money to buy her a wedding ring. Unfortunately he has a fatal accident and he uses his dying breath to sing “Tell Laura I love her”.

Or if you really want to cry:

Let’s hope I am not making a mistake.

Thanks for reading,

Laura xoxoxoxo

One comment

  1. I really liked this article! Also, I liked your attitude!
    I always embrace love when I find it. Then, there is never a happy ending (The show must go on right?). Either mine or theirs, someone’s heart has to be broken 🙂 Yet, when I look back I don’t regret making those “mistakes”. Mistakes proves the fact that we are trying! And I can never tell if I will able to see the sunshine again tomorrow, so I better embrace it when I feel love. I don’t know how long it will last but I will enjoy every second of it.

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