I have a confession to make. I have been overcome by love and I am scared as hell by it.
I have become a walking cliché.
Smiling stupidly when he texts.
Suddenly stopping what I am doing when I think of him.
Listening to soppy love songs (because they make sense).
There are a lot of butterflies in my stomach right now.
My heart literally feels like it is going to burst.
Obviously before embarking on a new relationship I did a lot of “research”. Confronted by lots of websites which says “You should wait….” “You should let him chase you..” “Don’t forget it’s just a bunch of chemicals” “Don’t kiss on the first date” “Don’t do this…don’t do that. Feel this. Feel that.”
I am not going to lie – I have “known” this guy just over a week. It has been an intense time!
“Don’t confuse love for lust after a week”.
So many rules out there trying to dictate how I am supposed to love and feel. How I am supposed to be in control of my feelings.
Yes…well dear readers…I have decided to say “fuck you” to the rules and I am going to fully enjoy this happiness.
Could I be setting myself up for the biggest heartbreak of my life? – Most possibly.
Am I going to regret this blog post after I post it? – Most definitely.
The good thing is…I know that whatever happens – I can survive it 🙂
I have spent years denying myself of pleasures. Even now I don’t eat breakfast in the morning – as I am trying to keep my weight down. I am going to enjoy this moment of absolute bliss.
Because you never know what tomorrow could bring.
This reminds me of a song my dad used to sing to me all the time when I was a kid.
“Tell Laura I love her” tells the story of a man (named Tommy) who takes part in a racing competition so that he can win money to buy her a wedding ring. Unfortunately he has a fatal accident and he uses his dying breath to sing “Tell Laura I love her”.
Or if you really want to cry:
Let’s hope I am not making a mistake.
Thanks for reading,